Scrolling through Magda Frackowiak Instagram account I came across a photo of her leaning against a wall, hands in her pockets, wearing a black shirt opened to the navel. My inner green eyed monster put an appearance and I envied her small boobs.
This is not a new thing for me. Every since I started to be interested in fashion, I wanted a small chest. It’s the way clothes hang on flat chested women that I particularly love, and the fact that they can get away with not wearing a bra, or wearing shirts like Magdalena without the risk of boobs escaping left right and centre.
Is this even normal? I mean, in the day and age the era when breasts implant are so hugely popular, is it even normal to desire A size chest? If you go to the sort of clubs in London that City bankers frequent you will be forgiven for thinking that only blonde and DD chested women have fun. My friend’s wife got herself shiny round new boobs. “I told her not to- said my friend- but she insisted. So I told her to get the biggest ones the doctor would allow her to”. That for me, pretty much sums up men attitude towards breasts.
I must admit that for years the boob issue was a confusing one for me. Being a flat chested teenager I really really wanted those big bouncy breasts that some of my class mates had. That and that long straight hair like Liv Tyler or Alicja Silverstone in Aerosmith videos. I kept stuffing my bra with tissue but of course I could never achieve that natural bounce 🙂 At about 16 years old I was finally a proud owner of my own breasts. My happiness was short lived, though. I soon discovered fashion- and suddenly they seem to be more of an annoyance than “asset”.
But when I lost weight- despite being at my happiest, body wise, I’d lost my breast and wasn’t quite sure how I felt about it. I veered between loving it to feeling “not womanly enough”. I now think it was just a classic case of the grass being greener on the other side.
I can totally see the appeal of boobs. I mean, Tasha Oakley always gets a like from me when I see her Instagram snapps in a bikini (which is most of the time given her niche). The other day I had a Skype conference between a client and another lawyer. I wore a tweed suit. She wore a wrap around dress and a push up bra. Her boobs were in my face, filling in the entire screen. I mean, I’ve had to turn off the camera because even I was getting distracted and I don’t think the client had heard anything what was being discussed.
As for me, I’m happy with the current state of affairs although I wouldn’t say no to a smaller size. Can you imagine how fantastic would a tuxedo look over a flat chest?
Silk shirt: vintage
Jewelry: Apart, Yes, Kruk